Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Distance Between Us

The first time I see that smile,
I wonder, what warmth is this?
Spending too long in cold desolation,
Can I run under the sun for once more?

Curiosity I feel,
I try to be brave to come.
Running chasing your shadow in vanity,
Can I be a part of your march this time?

Oh dear...

We come from different world,
we come to differ too much...
No matter how hard I try,
I just don't belong here...

The best you try to fit me,
teach this fool about the world.
It's not your fault when they don't accept me,
I'm just foolish, I can't take your kindness.

We come from different world,
we can't understand each one...
No matter how hard I try,
I just don't belong here...
I just can't belong here...

We come from different world...
You shine brightly in daylight,
while I'm but a guidance in the dark.

We come from different world,
we can't be a live comrade...
But at least,
Can't I just keep that smile?
Can't I keep this memories?
Of the days we're still together...

We belong to different place...
You belong to the light of dawn,
while I'm but a hermit of the dusk...

This unspoken words...
This unsung song...
The stories never been told...
The future we can't have...

Sun, Moon, Eclipse

To be like him,
To live to its fullest, to feel bliss in every breath.
To smile a warm smile, to share a love that once we know.

To be like him,
To know, to understand a wisdom that detach and unite.
To keep a silence moment, to watch the rise and fall of everything.

To be like him,
To be immersed by both bliss and emptiness.
To be liberated from both fading and unfading...

Dance of Paradox

The garland of flower, the garland of skull;
Sweet autumn breeze, chill wind of cemetery;
Terrifying beauty of motionless dance,
fulfill the blue sky.

Like thousands of moons reflecting in mirror,
Why it is so brilliance, yet so frightening?

By the presence of wisdom, it's a magnificent play;
Without wisdom, it's a deadly addicting drugs!

Lost

When I'm seeing my fiends' photo,
I feel like I've been a part of them,
even if I'm not there and in fact I can't be a part of them...

In the loneliness I wonder,
how much loss I've been through?
How much I envy them for their smile,
that might never be mine...

To whom do I have to ask,
to release me from this loneliness?
To find the place where I do belong...

Praise to the Compassionate One

Even though You are not my parents,
even though You are not my lovers,
You still think of me like no one.

Once You gaze upon me with such compassionate looks,
but Your heart is clear from any attachment...

Once You show me the warmth of Your anger and wrath,
but Your heart is clear from any aversion...

Once You show me Your unclear and ridiculous act,
but Your heart is clear from any ignorance...

You whose existence come to be for our sake only,
may one day I come to be for the sake of others...
Meanwhile, please bear with me and all of my colors...

For the Sake of My Beloved

It hurts me so to see
Your eyes steeled in anger.
Don't let yourself be
Forever bound by hatred

My love is still here.
It is still here, so hold your head up.

For the sake of your smile,
If I must become a demon, I would become one...

Love and Demon

Love is invisible,
yet it can take many forms,
just so humans can recognize its presence.

Sometimes it comes in forms of parents,
sometimes it comes in forms of lover,
sometimes it comes in forms of symbol,
sometimes it comes in forms of friends...

Yet, not many people recognize its empty nature,
and tend to fall in demonic form of love named obsession...

Peace

One end leads to another beginning,
life is but an eternal dance that constantly changing...

There is love, there is hatred,
There is greed, there is generosity,
There is joy, there is sorrow,

But when one's mind is clear,
free from all cravings,
anywhere we go is paradise.

Because life is never flat,
the poor may become rich; rich may become poor.
The good may become bad; but the bad may become good!

I pray that wherever you go,
or whatever you might become,
may peace always be with you...

Tired

Many shits happen today,
and as a responsible adults,
smile is a must things...

Unspoken words are many,
most of them are sad.

Remembering a kindness,
even if my heart is full of misery,
let me rest within this old song...

Progress and Regress

Those carefree day we had as a child,
slowly fading as the times goes by.

Sincere smile that comes from joy,
become a means for avoid conflict.

A pure compliment and appreciation,
now is a tools for seeking acknowledgement.

We think about others feel,
whilst made us untrue to our self.

we think about money and power,
and begin to abandon love and joy.

The bliss that once come from simplicity,
begin to feel as if it comes from luxury.

Ah, Heaven is near!
Only if we could see the way a children see...

For the Sake of Past and Future

Deluded view makes us see nothing but fire,
where in this world should I take a refuge?

In the pain and agony I cry,
within this sorrow I call only Your name.

The Most High,
The Thousand Winds that all-embracing,
I beseech You, stay with me and hear me...

The hands that means for salvation,
the eyes that looked upon misery,
You who aren't differ with the Triple Gems,
in The Highest Refuge do I surrender my live.

The love that should be one and united,
has been torn between two whom I care.
Many things we don't understand,
and misunderstanding breeds hatred.

On Your hand do I surrender this pain,
In your salvation act I put my faith...

The memories that haunting like shadows,
crying of the past echoing in mind only.
Even though they don't exist anymore,
but like a dream they bring vivid sufferings.

On Your hand do I surrender this pain,
In your salvation act I put my faith...

Thus the verse has been spoken,
before the tears exhausted,
let me rest in Your embrace...

Om Mani Padme Hum

Distance

Same pole magnets will repel each other.
Same side blades will destroy each other.
Space needed to avoid such happens.

I just wonder,
how much space I need to take,
so nobody would hurt?

It's hard to please every people nowadays,
it's harder to please beloved...

Only to The Highest Refuge I could tell,
please abandon me never...

Only to The Highest Refuge I could cry,
please hear my pledge...

Dream of Childhood

The boy who stay a boy,
playing and laughing is all he know,
within this small community he live.

The boy who stay a boy,
he regards the friendship highly,
he loves his friend like a family.

The boy who stay a boy,
to stay as it is is all he want,
refused to grow he smile like usual.

The boy who stay a boy,
how poor! The time stands in pride,
never let anyone untouched.

The boy who stay a boy,
"Let's play" he said to the grown friend,
"I'm busy" they replied to the little one.

The boy who stay a boy,
the longing become more severe,
silently weep for the good ol' days.

The boy who stay a boy,
his friends come to take many way,
leaving him scattered alone.

The boy who stay a boy,
nobody seems remember him now,
nobody talks or play with him.

The boy who stay a boy,
he walks alone to the path of nowhere,
he smile when remembering those days.

The boy who stay a boy,
nothing stays forever,
to be against time, or to flow with it.

The boy who stay a boy,
he is not young anymore,
it's difficult to seek a new friend either.

The boy who stay a boy,
his cries echoes into the sky,
vanished without trace within thin air.

Curiosity

What is love? What is hatred?

The sun never bless the deep sea,
where strange fish lived in fear.
Living long in a small circle,
never imagine what others like.

What is family? What is stranger?

The one who supposed to care,
the one who supposed to protect.
Seeing nothing but jealousy,
I wonder who is who?

What are friends? What are enemies?

We come from different place,
yet we once one and supporting.
Blinded by an empty dreams,
we leave our path to strike others.

We search others in need,
yet abandon others for our version of "greater purpose"...

Pengalaman

Sebelum seseorang mengatakan, "Kamu tahu apa? Saya sudah lebih banyak pengalaman daripada kamu!" Hendaklah ia menanyakan hal berikut pada diri sendiri.

1. Adakah saya mampu belajar sesuatu dari pengalaman yang segudang itu?

Buku yang ditumpuk di gudang tanpa pernah dibaca tidak lebih dari sekedar sampah. Yang membuat suatu buku menjadi berharga adalah apa yang tertulis di dalamnya. Sering saya melihat orang yang sedari muda telah banyak berjudi, mabuk-mabukan, bermain dengan pelacur, dan sampai mati tidak pernah berhenti. Ketika dinasehati, terutama oleh yang lebih muda, kata-kata di awal tulisan inilah yang paling sering keluar. Banggakah seseorang dengan pengalaman "sampah" nya itu?

2. Adakah saya mengambil pelajaran yang tepat dari pengalaman saya?

Sekalipun seseorang mampu belajar sesuatu dari pengalamannya, ada baiknya ia tidak menjadi kaku dan menutup persepsi lain atas pengalaman tersebut, karena bisa jadi kesimpulan yang kita ambil salah! Sebagai contoh, saya seringkali dirugikan oleh orang dari suku dan agama tertentu. Pelajaran yang salah tentu ketika kita menjadi sangat antipati dan menutup pertemanan dengan orang dari suku dan agama tersebut. Mengapa salah? Karena setiap individu adalah unik. Dengan memukul rata semua orang, berarti kita menutup kemungkinan bertemu dengan orang baik dari golongan yang kita pukul rata tersebut.

3. Apakah pelajaran tersebut masih relevan diterapkan pada situasi tertentu?

Sebagai contoh, mungkin saja seseorang pernah punya pengalaman buruk dengan berbohong, dan sedari kecil kita sudah diajarkan bahwa berbohong itu dosa. Tetapi sebagai contoh, ketika kita mengetahui seseorang memiliki penyakit jantung sekaligus kanker, sementara yang bersangkutan tidak mengetahui hal tersebut. Andaikata orang itu menanyakan kepada kita sebenarnya ia sakit apa, haruskan kita jujur dengan resiko besar membunuhnya karena serangan jantung?

Hanya jika ketiga saringan itu telah dilewati, seseorang baru pantas mengatakan, "Kamu tahu apa? Saya sudah lebih banyak pengalaman daripada kamu!".

Anyway, terkadang kita tidak harus mengalami sendiri untuk belajar. Kita bisa belajar dari pengalaman orang lain juga kok... Kenapa harus banyak pengalaman dahulu baru belajar? Orang bijak tidak harus menjatuhkan diri ke dalam got untuk tahu got itu kotor...

3 uraian telah dibeberkan, jikalau seseorang masih saja bersikukuh dengan prinsipnya bahwa ia paling banyak pengalaman, paling bijak, dan paling tidak boleh dibantah, maka ia seperti pohon yang tua dan kaku, dan ketika badai tiba, patahlah pohon itu...

Friday, May 16, 2014

Sign

By : FLOW

I realize the screaming pain
Hearing loud in my brain
But I'm going straight ahead
With this scar

Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me, so am I

I don't mind if you don't remember
All the feelings that we used to share
For I've sealed away my heart into the darkness

It's just fine if you end up hurting me
Because I don't feel pain anymore
I just drag my feet behind me
Towards what's held in store

I had been led astray
With no hope to be found
My heart withered away
And I fell to the ground

Then I heard a voice within the blowing of the wind

Please let me show you the pain
My scars have made me obtain
Before the weight of the world
Comes crashing down on my shoulders

Do you remember the time
Our tears fell down from the sky

Although I've blocked all of my feelings
Even the ones caused by being kind
Every now and then I hear a voice
Inside me seem to cry

Like when you undo
A button from it's hole
My bitter torment drew
My body from my soul

So I'm crying out in hopes to fill my empty heart

Please let me show you the pain
My scars have made me obtain
Before the weight of the world
Comes crashing down on my shoulders

Do you remember the time
Our tears fell down from the sky

Someday soon when I am gone
Never think that I will neglect you
For the pain the that I have
Sealed away in your heart will protect you

Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me

Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me
So am I

I have finally found
All of the heartbroken moans
That I keep hearing sound
Are from my voice alone

I'm sure that right from the start
You always knew in your heart
That I'd always be the one
That you could count on to care for you

I have been leading you to
The sign that I left for you
Someday soon when I am gone
Never think that I will neglect you

If you will follow the pain
That through me you have obtained
There is nothing in the world
That will be able to hurt you

But don't forget all the things
That bring out your smiling

Someday soon when I am gone
Never think that I will neglect you

Someday soon when I am gone
Never think that I will neglect you
For the pain that I have
Sealed away in your heart will protect you

Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me
So am I