Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Chance

There are people who try to understand us,
why we can't understand them?

There are people who misunderstood us,
why we try to understand them?

Understand and being understood,
the chance is like a grain in the desert...

There are people who love us with all their heart,
why we can't love them back?

There are people whom we love but didn't love us,
why we try to be loved by them?

Loving and being loved,
the chance is like a drop in the ocean...

There are who trust us without doubt,
why we can't trust them too?

There are people whom we trust but backstabed us then,
why we try to maintain our trust for them?

Trusting and being trusted,
the chance is like a needle in the hay...

There are people who want us to stay close to them,
why we want to go even though they begged us to stay?

There are people whom we want to stay close to us,
why we begged them even though we know they'll go anyway?

Being closed with the people we longing for,
the chance is like a dust in the sky...

Within this ephemeral dream,
mutual chance are rare.

Why don't we give the things we craving so much,
rather than longing for people to give them to us?

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Memento

In today's rainy weather, I just remember an old event with a dear pal...

I used to fond of collecting photos. Every event, if I could, I would collect its photo.

(P = Pal, M = Me)

P : Why are you really fond of collecting photo?
M : Don't you want to look at them again one day? And remember some past event in life?
P : Nope... I think I don't really fond about memories or something like that...
P : Even I seldom re-look the photos in my posession...
P : I don't know, but seems like I don't really fond of "memories" things...
M : ... (Continue copying photo. I just don't know how to reply at that moment)

Well, today after remembering this kind of event, thoughts running in my mind...
I think that pal of mine haven't experience loss... Especially loss of someone close... Or maybe if he ever experienced it, it's not really often...

After all, for me, the memory of determination and kindness is important in our darkest hours.

If we could remember our determination, it would keep us moving when we experience desperation.
If we could remember kindness shown to us, it would keep ud kind amidst the curelty.
If we could remember love shown to us, it would keep us sane in the insane situation.

So, are memories important? Not everytime... We won't create anything by daydreaming all days about old memories anyway...
But sometimes, we must look back.
In memories, we might find courage, kindness, and firmness.
So we could find a light to walk straight, and we won't become the person we hate in our old days...

Fire Boundary

Living a live of human within a society is like...
Blind people treading a path while bringing a torch,
in hope that it would show them the way and protect them.

We meet people, we talk to them,
acting like we know everything about them,
labeling them as "important"...

We forget that we are a blind person who can't see people clearly,
we began to walk closer to each other.
Sooner or later we burn each other with our torch...

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Old Song

The song of old days,
we used to play together.
Today the song remains unchanged,
but now I play it alone.

Friday, November 14, 2014

Uneasiness

No matter how hard we wish,
people eventually leave.
On this tranquil holy night,
what actually do I searching for?

The time come and pass,
leaving only lingering feeling.
Craving to repeat the lost moment,
the wheel of pain turned endlessly.

Monday, November 10, 2014

Blindness

Living a live of human within a society is like...
Blind people treading a path while bringing a torch,
in hope that it would show them the way and protect them.

We meet people, we talk to them,
acting like we know everything about them,
labeling them as "important"...

We forget that we are a blind person who can't see people clearly,
we began to walk closer to each other.
Sooner or later we burn each other with our torch...

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Moon Flower

To the stars that are fiddling with the darkness,
I sing about love and burn down to nothing.

Having lit up my punishments, I leave behind fingernail marks
as I nestle close to the innocent daisies' dreams.

Traveling from one pair of lips to another,
where is that warmth going?
It clearly doesn't have a destination.

I wouldn't be satisfied if you weren't with me.
I wouldn't have been able to forgive you if I wasn't myself.
Therefore, I felt a shiver
after I managed to stand up on my own feet.

I can be saved if someone would keep me until my death,
but with my lock flagrantly unlocked,
I am just like
a small maddened bird that yearns for a cage.

The flower carries a load of lies.

See through me with your cold fingers.
Touch me but please don't soil me.

When I turn around, I see that one of my feathers
is burned and stuck on the thorny road.

If everything is an illusion, I'll love the illusion
and be able to abandon even my tomorrow.
So give me a reason to fear it.

Because I couldn't live on if you weren't with me,
I chased after those withering nights.
I wanted you to plunder me
forcefully into your arms.

But my rhythmic lowly heartbeats
are being enveloped by silence.
In the room where we used to horse around,
I cover my ears and count the number of my divine punishments.

I wouldn't be satisfied if you weren't with me.
I wouldn't have been able to forgive you if I wasn't myself.
Therefore, I felt a shiver
after I managed to stand up on my own feet.

I can be saved if someone would keep me until my death,
but with my lock flagrantly unlocked,
I am just like
a small maddened bird that yearns for a cage.

The flower carries a load of lies.

By : Nana Kitade
Original Title : Tsukihana

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Eve of The Future

Peep me with a chemical scope
until the coming of dawn
There are no taboos between us
so you may love me anatomically
to your heart's desire

The whole city
is a one huge test site
As soon as you become useless
you're promptly erased
so live passionately now while you can

In the underground Garden of Eden
the happiness we struggle for is but a mirage

O' Eve of the Future
The android without tears
born of the bones of Mephistopheres;
the goddess of corruption
Let me to your your apple,
let me taste it, let me bite it
let me savour the flavour of sin

Inside the brains of metal
lies a dazzling feeling of ecstacy
It is the memory of the maidens,
Who died remaining as angels
Nobody can change
the fate that's been decided
In those days of slavery
under the heel of
a heartless god
there is no such thing as freedom

The only thing I can believe in
is the smiling body lying down here

O' Eve of Ideals
the electronic courtesan of repose,
the device that manipulates love,
that the scientists
used up all their skill to create
Catch the snake of temptation,
fondle it, stab it
and let me probe the depths of darkness

Whenever you look at me with your eyes
the pulse starts to ring inside my ruby heart

I am Eve,
an android who was raised
among the delusions of the megalopolis
but who still knows no impurity
so please hold me gently

Eve of the Future,
born of the bones of Mephistopheres,
the android who know tears
is a woman in love!
Let me to your apple
let me taste it, let me bite it
let me understand more of the meaning of life

Original Title : Mirai no Eve
By : Ali Project

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

What Love Is

I walk this lonely path,
so others won't need to walk it.

I eat this bitter fruits,
so others won't need to eat them.

I will cry for them,
but never let them cry for me.

Whatever pain or sins I will take,
for the sake of my beloved.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Sign of Renunciation

Getting tired of the lies called love,
Getting tired of the lies called hatred.

Getting tired of the lies called friendship,
Getting tired of the lies called stranger.

Getting tired of the lies called family,
Getting tired of the lies called enemies.

Friends and stranger, families and enemies,
they come and go, no matter how hard we wish they stay.
After all people's heart won't stay the same.

Pain and sorrow, joy and happiness,
they're but a castle built upon sand.
By water and wind, it vanished.

In desperation people built it over and over,
by blood and tears it succeed again and again.
Yet in vain they lost it from one to another.

Listen with sympathy,
live is but a loop of jumping dream.
One end would mark another beginning of endless cycle.
Humans' greed, lust, and ignorance turn it eternally.

Listen with joy,
mind is but a tricky magician.
It made us sees pain as pleasure, and pleasure as pain.
By understanding our greed,
someday we might understand what is the most precious thing to us...

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Strength

Because I choose to walk this lonely path,
because I choose not to trust anyone,
because I choose to be ruthless to my foes,
Am I strong now?

Strong

What it means to be strong?
Is it harsh words?

What it means to be strong?
Is it beatings?

What it means to be strong?
Is it endurance?

What it means to be strong?
I can't differ it from being cruel...

Fire would harden clay,
but it also break the same clay...

So tell me,
How can I being strong?

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Wall of Flame

The flame radiating its warmth,
but might burn someone to death.
Alas, society is but a sea of flame,
if we're not keep a distance,
we'll become ashes!

Prevention

There will always be someone,
who suffers more than us.
But this suffering is not light,
enemies is not few.

Not wanting to add for more,
better walk away from discomfort.
Everyone might be friend or foe,
better prepare to cut them off earlier.

Uncertainty

The trust once given,
might become weapons directed to us.
Friends or foe come and go,
either way they might be the same person.

Whom I can trust,
a midst this changing world?
People's heart built upon sand,
when wind come they're swiped.

Shatter

The plate has been shattered.
Either fixed or thrown away,
the mark will always be visible.

Reversal

Defiled white veiled by mere fragrance.
Hidden hatred shown as fake goodwill.
Even if this heart is full of angst,
we have no choice but to put a smile.

Friday, June 20, 2014

Struggle

Fine tips piercing like a light,
never lose control and sight.
Say for love there must be fight,
but for me never been a slight.

Mirage

A great mountain I dream,
how peace I found no sin.
Within a mirage we swim,
this truth so few has seen.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Regarding Betrayal

Three common reasons when friends or family betray us.

1. Foolishness

Under this category :
- Inability to understand someone's character, tendency, and intention that leads to misunderstanding.
- Inability to communicate our thought in clear word.
- Weak stance. Those who doesn't have strong principal of life. Easily affected by someone else.

2. Hatred

- Past mistakes that leave permanent mark in mind. Even if forgiven, any provocation will make it revealed again.
- Hatred that born from misunderstanding.
- Hatred that born from differences of thought or culture.

3. Greed

- Greed that blinds people make someone can do unthinkable deeds.
- Greed for money and for deluded love.

Those who have small chance to betray us.

1. Those with small greed. Having a certain degree of renunciation towards worldly delight.
2. Those with a certain degree of concentration and self-control.
3. Those who understand how fragile this world is.
4. Those who has strong compassion.

Faith

I'd rather be a naive child that still believe in heaven and hell then being an adult that only believe in money.

There are people that are overly proud of their worldly achievement such as good career, good business, beautiful spouse, and many else. I wonder, are they ever think that it won't be with them forever? Running away from reality will only make it more painful...

Monday, June 9, 2014

Ignorance and Hatred

Ignorance breeds ambition...

Fail to see what is the source of happiness, what is the source of pain, thirsty peoples crave for salt water. Our greed can't be satisfied by feeding it, even with every kind of pleasure available in this world. Because nothing is permanent, including our mind.

Ambition blinds empathy...

In order to get everything we want, we could do the many unthinkable cruel things to others. For the sake of worldly ambition, call it money, power, or sex, even family and friends could be sacrificed.

Lacking of empathy breeds hatred...

Hatred towards other, hatred towards us. Those whom we hurt hates us, those who doesn't think like we do, we hate them.

Hatred breeds anxiety...

Drowning in the ocean of sins, life like "to kill or to be killed". Fear become a part of live, because we fear that others would treat us like we did. Hell is nothing in afterlife, because sins of hatred and cruelty making us always seeing hell on earth.

Family

Fake smile and insincere kindness,
All I want is nothing but love.
My mind is wondering like child,
In pain trying to believe in fairy tale.
Live is nothing like happily ever after,
Yelling for help, you get back-stabbed.

Friday, June 6, 2014

Final Distance

By : Utada Hikaru

I'm anxious but I can't say anything
I'm tired of swimming, even you've become silent

I want to see you, but an invisible wave pushes us
Again, just a little more distance

Try not to stop keep it going baby
If you don't feel the same then tell me
Even if your principle is to not try
It's alright to try a little

I wanna be with you now
Let's shorten the distance with the two of us
We can still make it on time
We can start over
We can't be as one

I wanna be with you
Someday even this distance
We'll be able to embrace
We can start sooner
After all I wanna be with you

You, who gets hurt with a single word
Taught me what loneliness is

When you can't protect me keep on trying baby
It's not as I promised but trust me
My principle is to not try but
I would do it for you

I wanna be with you now
Look at our distance with the two of us
We can still make it
We can start over
I want to tell you with words

I wanna be with you now
One day, even the distance
I'll be able to embrace
We should stay together
After all, I need to be with you

To The Western Sky (Nishi no Sora e)

By : Spoon

Making my way through the blueness of the sky
I'll reach you with all my heart

My broken watch should be left here
If there is something to believe in...

Until I grab hold of my dreams, my eyes won't change
From looking up at the distant western sky
If I want to cross over it, I can't look back
I wear down my shoes as I move on

With every single breath I take
I'm happily escaping

Even the straight path is surprising and uneven
I'm not worried about the gaps

Until tomorrow is in sight, I shall raise my head
Aiming at the far-off western sky
So I'll never forget, don't let go of these hands
My priority is what is most important

Until I grab hold of my dreams, my eyes won't change
From looking up at the distant western sky
If I want to cross over it, I can't look back
I wear down my shoes as I move on

Thursday, June 5, 2014

War

One war has ended,
another just waiting.

The wound can't be healed,
what has been lost can't be recovered.

The tiger who chase two rabbits,
nothing she could gain in the end.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

The Day We Used to Spend Together

We take a nap,
you cook a dish.

we were gone holiday,
I just sit smiling.

We talk many joke,
we sing many songs.

You share your life,
I just listen to them.

We're hanging out,
you keep the mood.

Are they all just a dream?
The bubble that vanish into the air.

Family or friends is just a name,
by money and power they're swiped.

Reason for Unsettle

Beberapa waktu ini ada 2 orang yang berkata pada saya : "Kamu sudah dewasa, kalau aku nggak bisa membuat kamu mengerti, aku nyerah..."

Pernyataan itu membuahkan pemikiran di benak saya. Jadi karena sudah dewasa, sudah mandiri dan bisa cari uang sendiri, mereka tidak lagi punya otoritas atas diri ini. Mereka tidak lagi bisa mengancam akan mengusir atau menampar saya. Di lain pihak, dengan kata2 seperti itu, selain mereka tidak mau berusaha lebih lanjut untuk membuat saya mengerti, itu juga berarti andaikata ada kejadian yang menimpa saya saat ini sehingga mereka berkata demikian di waktu saya masih kecil, pasti saya sudah dimaki-maki dan dipaksa diam tanpa penjelasan lebih lanjut.

Mungkin itulah kenyataan hidup... Yang kuat akan menggunakan kekuatan mereka "demi kebaikan". Berapa banyak hal2 yang tidak terselesaikan karena sikap seperti itu?

Anyway, andaikata saya masih dipertemukan kembali dengan mereka2 yang telah membuat unsettle things pada saya sejak saya masih kecil, saya akan pertanyakan pada mereka, "Kenapa dulu kamu sedah memaki saya didepan umum lalu kemudian merobek layangan kami? Tidak cukup puas kah???"

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Distance Between Us

The first time I see that smile,
I wonder, what warmth is this?
Spending too long in cold desolation,
Can I run under the sun for once more?

Curiosity I feel,
I try to be brave to come.
Running chasing your shadow in vanity,
Can I be a part of your march this time?

Oh dear...

We come from different world,
we come to differ too much...
No matter how hard I try,
I just don't belong here...

The best you try to fit me,
teach this fool about the world.
It's not your fault when they don't accept me,
I'm just foolish, I can't take your kindness.

We come from different world,
we can't understand each one...
No matter how hard I try,
I just don't belong here...
I just can't belong here...

We come from different world...
You shine brightly in daylight,
while I'm but a guidance in the dark.

We come from different world,
we can't be a live comrade...
But at least,
Can't I just keep that smile?
Can't I keep this memories?
Of the days we're still together...

We belong to different place...
You belong to the light of dawn,
while I'm but a hermit of the dusk...

This unspoken words...
This unsung song...
The stories never been told...
The future we can't have...

Sun, Moon, Eclipse

To be like him,
To live to its fullest, to feel bliss in every breath.
To smile a warm smile, to share a love that once we know.

To be like him,
To know, to understand a wisdom that detach and unite.
To keep a silence moment, to watch the rise and fall of everything.

To be like him,
To be immersed by both bliss and emptiness.
To be liberated from both fading and unfading...

Dance of Paradox

The garland of flower, the garland of skull;
Sweet autumn breeze, chill wind of cemetery;
Terrifying beauty of motionless dance,
fulfill the blue sky.

Like thousands of moons reflecting in mirror,
Why it is so brilliance, yet so frightening?

By the presence of wisdom, it's a magnificent play;
Without wisdom, it's a deadly addicting drugs!

Lost

When I'm seeing my fiends' photo,
I feel like I've been a part of them,
even if I'm not there and in fact I can't be a part of them...

In the loneliness I wonder,
how much loss I've been through?
How much I envy them for their smile,
that might never be mine...

To whom do I have to ask,
to release me from this loneliness?
To find the place where I do belong...

Praise to the Compassionate One

Even though You are not my parents,
even though You are not my lovers,
You still think of me like no one.

Once You gaze upon me with such compassionate looks,
but Your heart is clear from any attachment...

Once You show me the warmth of Your anger and wrath,
but Your heart is clear from any aversion...

Once You show me Your unclear and ridiculous act,
but Your heart is clear from any ignorance...

You whose existence come to be for our sake only,
may one day I come to be for the sake of others...
Meanwhile, please bear with me and all of my colors...

For the Sake of My Beloved

It hurts me so to see
Your eyes steeled in anger.
Don't let yourself be
Forever bound by hatred

My love is still here.
It is still here, so hold your head up.

For the sake of your smile,
If I must become a demon, I would become one...

Love and Demon

Love is invisible,
yet it can take many forms,
just so humans can recognize its presence.

Sometimes it comes in forms of parents,
sometimes it comes in forms of lover,
sometimes it comes in forms of symbol,
sometimes it comes in forms of friends...

Yet, not many people recognize its empty nature,
and tend to fall in demonic form of love named obsession...

Peace

One end leads to another beginning,
life is but an eternal dance that constantly changing...

There is love, there is hatred,
There is greed, there is generosity,
There is joy, there is sorrow,

But when one's mind is clear,
free from all cravings,
anywhere we go is paradise.

Because life is never flat,
the poor may become rich; rich may become poor.
The good may become bad; but the bad may become good!

I pray that wherever you go,
or whatever you might become,
may peace always be with you...

Tired

Many shits happen today,
and as a responsible adults,
smile is a must things...

Unspoken words are many,
most of them are sad.

Remembering a kindness,
even if my heart is full of misery,
let me rest within this old song...

Progress and Regress

Those carefree day we had as a child,
slowly fading as the times goes by.

Sincere smile that comes from joy,
become a means for avoid conflict.

A pure compliment and appreciation,
now is a tools for seeking acknowledgement.

We think about others feel,
whilst made us untrue to our self.

we think about money and power,
and begin to abandon love and joy.

The bliss that once come from simplicity,
begin to feel as if it comes from luxury.

Ah, Heaven is near!
Only if we could see the way a children see...

For the Sake of Past and Future

Deluded view makes us see nothing but fire,
where in this world should I take a refuge?

In the pain and agony I cry,
within this sorrow I call only Your name.

The Most High,
The Thousand Winds that all-embracing,
I beseech You, stay with me and hear me...

The hands that means for salvation,
the eyes that looked upon misery,
You who aren't differ with the Triple Gems,
in The Highest Refuge do I surrender my live.

The love that should be one and united,
has been torn between two whom I care.
Many things we don't understand,
and misunderstanding breeds hatred.

On Your hand do I surrender this pain,
In your salvation act I put my faith...

The memories that haunting like shadows,
crying of the past echoing in mind only.
Even though they don't exist anymore,
but like a dream they bring vivid sufferings.

On Your hand do I surrender this pain,
In your salvation act I put my faith...

Thus the verse has been spoken,
before the tears exhausted,
let me rest in Your embrace...

Om Mani Padme Hum

Distance

Same pole magnets will repel each other.
Same side blades will destroy each other.
Space needed to avoid such happens.

I just wonder,
how much space I need to take,
so nobody would hurt?

It's hard to please every people nowadays,
it's harder to please beloved...

Only to The Highest Refuge I could tell,
please abandon me never...

Only to The Highest Refuge I could cry,
please hear my pledge...

Dream of Childhood

The boy who stay a boy,
playing and laughing is all he know,
within this small community he live.

The boy who stay a boy,
he regards the friendship highly,
he loves his friend like a family.

The boy who stay a boy,
to stay as it is is all he want,
refused to grow he smile like usual.

The boy who stay a boy,
how poor! The time stands in pride,
never let anyone untouched.

The boy who stay a boy,
"Let's play" he said to the grown friend,
"I'm busy" they replied to the little one.

The boy who stay a boy,
the longing become more severe,
silently weep for the good ol' days.

The boy who stay a boy,
his friends come to take many way,
leaving him scattered alone.

The boy who stay a boy,
nobody seems remember him now,
nobody talks or play with him.

The boy who stay a boy,
he walks alone to the path of nowhere,
he smile when remembering those days.

The boy who stay a boy,
nothing stays forever,
to be against time, or to flow with it.

The boy who stay a boy,
he is not young anymore,
it's difficult to seek a new friend either.

The boy who stay a boy,
his cries echoes into the sky,
vanished without trace within thin air.

Curiosity

What is love? What is hatred?

The sun never bless the deep sea,
where strange fish lived in fear.
Living long in a small circle,
never imagine what others like.

What is family? What is stranger?

The one who supposed to care,
the one who supposed to protect.
Seeing nothing but jealousy,
I wonder who is who?

What are friends? What are enemies?

We come from different place,
yet we once one and supporting.
Blinded by an empty dreams,
we leave our path to strike others.

We search others in need,
yet abandon others for our version of "greater purpose"...

Pengalaman

Sebelum seseorang mengatakan, "Kamu tahu apa? Saya sudah lebih banyak pengalaman daripada kamu!" Hendaklah ia menanyakan hal berikut pada diri sendiri.

1. Adakah saya mampu belajar sesuatu dari pengalaman yang segudang itu?

Buku yang ditumpuk di gudang tanpa pernah dibaca tidak lebih dari sekedar sampah. Yang membuat suatu buku menjadi berharga adalah apa yang tertulis di dalamnya. Sering saya melihat orang yang sedari muda telah banyak berjudi, mabuk-mabukan, bermain dengan pelacur, dan sampai mati tidak pernah berhenti. Ketika dinasehati, terutama oleh yang lebih muda, kata-kata di awal tulisan inilah yang paling sering keluar. Banggakah seseorang dengan pengalaman "sampah" nya itu?

2. Adakah saya mengambil pelajaran yang tepat dari pengalaman saya?

Sekalipun seseorang mampu belajar sesuatu dari pengalamannya, ada baiknya ia tidak menjadi kaku dan menutup persepsi lain atas pengalaman tersebut, karena bisa jadi kesimpulan yang kita ambil salah! Sebagai contoh, saya seringkali dirugikan oleh orang dari suku dan agama tertentu. Pelajaran yang salah tentu ketika kita menjadi sangat antipati dan menutup pertemanan dengan orang dari suku dan agama tersebut. Mengapa salah? Karena setiap individu adalah unik. Dengan memukul rata semua orang, berarti kita menutup kemungkinan bertemu dengan orang baik dari golongan yang kita pukul rata tersebut.

3. Apakah pelajaran tersebut masih relevan diterapkan pada situasi tertentu?

Sebagai contoh, mungkin saja seseorang pernah punya pengalaman buruk dengan berbohong, dan sedari kecil kita sudah diajarkan bahwa berbohong itu dosa. Tetapi sebagai contoh, ketika kita mengetahui seseorang memiliki penyakit jantung sekaligus kanker, sementara yang bersangkutan tidak mengetahui hal tersebut. Andaikata orang itu menanyakan kepada kita sebenarnya ia sakit apa, haruskan kita jujur dengan resiko besar membunuhnya karena serangan jantung?

Hanya jika ketiga saringan itu telah dilewati, seseorang baru pantas mengatakan, "Kamu tahu apa? Saya sudah lebih banyak pengalaman daripada kamu!".

Anyway, terkadang kita tidak harus mengalami sendiri untuk belajar. Kita bisa belajar dari pengalaman orang lain juga kok... Kenapa harus banyak pengalaman dahulu baru belajar? Orang bijak tidak harus menjatuhkan diri ke dalam got untuk tahu got itu kotor...

3 uraian telah dibeberkan, jikalau seseorang masih saja bersikukuh dengan prinsipnya bahwa ia paling banyak pengalaman, paling bijak, dan paling tidak boleh dibantah, maka ia seperti pohon yang tua dan kaku, dan ketika badai tiba, patahlah pohon itu...

Friday, May 16, 2014

Sign

By : FLOW

I realize the screaming pain
Hearing loud in my brain
But I'm going straight ahead
With this scar

Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me, so am I

I don't mind if you don't remember
All the feelings that we used to share
For I've sealed away my heart into the darkness

It's just fine if you end up hurting me
Because I don't feel pain anymore
I just drag my feet behind me
Towards what's held in store

I had been led astray
With no hope to be found
My heart withered away
And I fell to the ground

Then I heard a voice within the blowing of the wind

Please let me show you the pain
My scars have made me obtain
Before the weight of the world
Comes crashing down on my shoulders

Do you remember the time
Our tears fell down from the sky

Although I've blocked all of my feelings
Even the ones caused by being kind
Every now and then I hear a voice
Inside me seem to cry

Like when you undo
A button from it's hole
My bitter torment drew
My body from my soul

So I'm crying out in hopes to fill my empty heart

Please let me show you the pain
My scars have made me obtain
Before the weight of the world
Comes crashing down on my shoulders

Do you remember the time
Our tears fell down from the sky

Someday soon when I am gone
Never think that I will neglect you
For the pain the that I have
Sealed away in your heart will protect you

Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me

Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me
So am I

I have finally found
All of the heartbroken moans
That I keep hearing sound
Are from my voice alone

I'm sure that right from the start
You always knew in your heart
That I'd always be the one
That you could count on to care for you

I have been leading you to
The sign that I left for you
Someday soon when I am gone
Never think that I will neglect you

If you will follow the pain
That through me you have obtained
There is nothing in the world
That will be able to hurt you

But don't forget all the things
That bring out your smiling

Someday soon when I am gone
Never think that I will neglect you

Someday soon when I am gone
Never think that I will neglect you
For the pain that I have
Sealed away in your heart will protect you

Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me
So am I

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Words

When friends ask you, "How are you?"
and you don't want to answer anything,
friends might think you've been through a rough life.

When families ask you, "What is your job?"
and you don't want to answer anything,
families might think you've been into mobs, prostitution, or drug dealings.

When recently known people ask you, "Where do you live?"
and you don't want to answer anything,
that people might think you live in some kind of slums.

When your spouse ask you, "Where have you gone?"
and you don't want to answer anything,
your spouse might think you have another lovers.

When your boss ask you, "How was your job progress?"
and you don't want to answer anything,
boss might think you are a lazy person who like to procrastinating.

When dealings with some unknown,
people tend to think negatively.
People can't read our thought,
but they can understand words.

Monday, March 3, 2014

Remember

Do you have any hatred in your heart?
If no, how can you understand the beauty of love?
Without ever denying the existence of hatred,
let your eyes seeing more to those love...

Do you keep any sorrow in your heart?
If no, how can you understand the beauty of joy?
Without ever denying the existence of sorrow,
let your eyes seeing more to those joy...

This world is not perfect,
and by those imperfection humans learn to perfect things.
This world is not beautiful,
and by those ugliness things humans learn to see beauty.

Once your eyes have shown me that looks,
a loving look, full of kindness...
Without ever forgetting that look,
let me stare once again to those eyes...
without denying your hatred,
let me remember those kindness once again...

Monday, February 24, 2014

Mononoke Hime

In the moonlight I felt your heart
Quiver like a bowstring's pulse
In the moon's pure light, you looked at me
Nobody knows your heart

When the sun is gone I see you
Beautiful and haunting, but cold
Like the blade of a knife, so sharp and so sweet
Nobody knows your heart

All of your sorrow, grief and pain
Locked away in the forest of the night
Your secret heart belongs to the world
Of the things that sigh in the dark
Oh the things that cry in the dark

Sadness and Kindness

Your eyes are a mirror in which I can see the world’s reflection
without ever forgetting your kindness
even if my heart is full of sad words
I will stare long and hard at the stars…

~Kino, Kino no Tabi~

Friday, February 21, 2014

Thank You

Original Title : Arigatou
By : Sunset Swish

If I trace the tears that are helplessly, unstoppably overflowing now
I’ll be able to meet you in my memories
The words that for the life of me I was never able to come out and say
Thank you so much

Ah, the town where I grew up, cultivating reckless passion
Whenever things didn’t go right I stopped believing in myself
But then I saw you, working so hard you were sweating
And it captivated me, it saved me, time and time again

I chased things I couldn’t reach and fell down like a fool
But you taught me the importance of not giving up

If I trace the tears that are helplessly, unstoppably overflowing now
I’ll be able to meet you in my memories
You enveloped me in an unchanging tenderness and strictness
Thank you so much

Not everything I’ve said or done has been right
But I did it with heart and passion, it was really embarrassing
When you showed me the way, I always talked back
Asserting myself, taking the long way round, getting lost

I rebelled and hurt myself, got carried away and lost track
And I think I learned a little about the importance of not giving up

If I trace the tears that are helplessly, unstoppably overflowing now
I’ll be able to meet you in my memories
The words I couldn’t say to you, who I love but hated
Thank you so much

I can run even when it’s hard to keep going
Surely, surely like you

If I trace the tears that are helplessly, unstoppably overflowing now
I’ll be able to meet you in my memories
The words that for the life of me I was never able to come out and say
Thank you so much
Thank you

Sentimental Moments

Original Title : Shunkan Sentimental
By : Scandal

Promises that shouldn't have been exchanged
Will try and take away our future today, too
Even if I obtain what I had wanted
I wonder why I still can't smile naturally

These tears that brim are neither of weakness nor regret
They're fragments born from the pain

Whatever moment, whatever fate
I've learned that only one thing is certain
Thinking to myself, from being lost in this moment
Tomorrow, I'm going to go forward

Always wanted to think
How my heart is after all that
I can't switch it
Always ruined the unchangeable future
I can see the unsurprising melody

That useless person, even when he smiles, he's shining bright
All the more, why does he shine?

Is it really a lie?
Don't give me an excuse
My heart wants to feel it

Definitely love, fantasy
I don't want to deceive it
Even if I'm hurt
I want to understand it
And it's a strong wish
There's also time when I fret

When the blue sky sheds tears, I spread my hands
Can we stay together like this for 10 years?

Whatever moment, whatever fate
I've learned that only one thing is certain

Whatever limits, whatever hardship
I don't want to give up
Don't let go
The warmth of your right hand that I held so tight
Is still here with me

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

The Love Song

OST. Nurarihyon no Mago
By : LM.C

I’m ready Go Stay gold
Because of love there are no more walls
For all the things that I love, this is The Love Song
I’ve lived my life holding on to everything
So that I won’t lose anything
If I don’t have the courage to reach out my hand
I can’t grab hold of anything beyond what I have now

Are you ready? Go! Stay gold
Lining up the sparkling, high-sounding talk, here we go
It’s never words that I want to convey

I can’t make a sound despite the screams in my heart
How many of it must I gather before it’ll reach you?
For all the irreplaceable things that I love
I’ll sing an unending song

It’s not that I have quite a number of really important things
The future that I got just by letting nature take its course
I’ll leave it here without any hesitation

Because of love there are no more walls
Get across fast-beating hearts and nudity, bring it on
“Whether love is present there,” that’s the question

Surging emotions that I can’t hold back
How much of it must I accumulate before it’ll reach you?
For all the irreplaceable things that I love
I’ll sing an unending song

Hey, I’m gonna take you higher!! Baby, All you need is love!!

Life is going on Say yeah!!
Raise the universal level, here we go again
I won’t sing a song with no love and no heart

I can’t make a sound despite the screams in my heart
How many of it must I gather before it’ll reach you?
For all the irreplaceable things that I love
I’ll keep drawing the endless future

Love, do believe in love believe in love

This is The Love Song

Monday, January 27, 2014

Awry

Too much perfection is not good,
because a bit imperfection is what makes this world perfect.
But how much that "a bit"?
By our pitiful human knowledge, we tend to think too much or too little.

When the question that are impossible to be answered being asked,
what kind of answer we should reply with?
THEY said to be silence is really disrespectful,
THEY said to answer means the very same disrespect!

When problems that aren't have any concrete solution being told,
the only advice is just we have to manage our mindset.
THEY said it's rude to talk that way for of person,
THEY said to remain idle to that thing is not good too.

The fatality of a fault we try to avoid...

When we are in awry position,
that doing something means fault,
that not doing something also means fault,
What more I could say? What more I could ask?

When a fault that are not our doings being told to us,
in a way that is beyond our comprehension to be replied,
Is that means that THEY expect words of apologize from us?
Or is that means that THEY are actually blaming us?

When unfavorable conditions arise,
should we blame others or should we blame our self?
No matter what we choose, both are destructive.
We hurt others, we hurt ourselves...

No matter how close peoples are,
in the end we should, we must understand,
it's nearly impossible to be able to understand others perfectly,
it's nearly impossible for each of us to be understood perfectly by others.

Each of us surrounded by an invisible fortress that must remain untouched,
too far and it means avoidance, too close and it means insult.
But how can we measure each others best distance?
How can we expect for others to understand our best distance?

The blue sky looked upon us proudly,
embracing our laugh and lament.
Can't we live without hurting anything?
Laugh is but a pain relievers...

Being understand and being understood,
its chance is like a grain within desert...

To talk like this to a person,
most will think this words are offenses.
The only thing I could do is write publicly and pray,
that this words will be heard by those who are concerned!